InBella, Mama

‘Hold Her A Little Longer’

I first started drafting this post a couple of nights ago when my emotions were running high after a two hour battle to get Bella to sleep. No matter what we tried she was having none of it and was just generally being a bit of a madam. Eventually I shouted at her, like really shouted at her and told her to stop messing around and to just I instantly regretted it, the Mum guilt hit me like a tonne of bricks and of course I then felt bloody awful which resulted in me bursting into tears myself. Oh the dramaaaaaa. So this post was going to be all about how tough I have been finding Motherhood lately.

But then today happened. I heard some really sad news. A local personal trainer and his wife tragically lost their three year old son this morning after he had a seizure last night. I don’t know them personally and I don’t know all the details but I don’t need to. My heart literally broke for this family when I heard the news, I felt physically sick and I could feel hot tears stinging in my eyes.

Three years old. Just three.years.old.

I can’t even comprehend what this family is going through right now, but my heart aches for them.

Life can be so cruel and so so unfair.

The world is such a scary place lately, with so much tragedy and way too much heartbreak. But things like this, so close to home too, really put it all into perspective. Motherhood IS hard. But I wouldn’t change it for the world. I wouldn’t trade a single second with my girl for anything. She drives me absolutely bonkers some days but my god I love her more than I ever knew was even possible and every day spent with her is a blessing.

Tonight I laid in her bed and held her a little longer, cuddled her a little tighter and made sure she knew just how much I love her.







‘Hold her a little longer, rock her a little more, read her another story; you’ve only read her four, let her sleep on your shoulder, rejoice in her happy smile, she is only a little girl for such a little while’



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  • Rebecca | aaublog

    I literally can not even comprehend what it would be like to lose a child. So sad and so shocking. puts it all into perspective for us though doesn’t it x

    August 19, 2016 at 12:01 am Reply
  • Zoe Forde

    Really heartfelt post. Like you, I always feel extremely empathetic with those who experience such loss like this. It makes you appreciate all the more what you have x

    August 19, 2016 at 10:52 am Reply
  • emily and indiana

    Absolutely heartbreaking 🙁 It really does put into perspective just how precious life can be. I have days where I’m the shouty mum and I hate it, but there’s honestly nothing better than being a mama xxx

    August 19, 2016 at 2:02 pm Reply
  • Katie Wells

    It is heartbreaking to hear of the death of someone so little. It makes you treasure those you have around you. Take care x

    August 19, 2016 at 6:58 pm Reply
  • blogging mummy

    things like this always make me go and hold my kids and give them a kiss. Its something that i don’t even want to try and comprehend! Lovely pics by the way hun. xx

    August 19, 2016 at 9:07 pm Reply
  • Jade Wilson

    I just can’t even begin to understand how those parents must be feeling. I can’t even think about that kind of stuff happening to my kids without nearly crying or panicking. Losses like that make you realise that even when they are driving you insane, you still have them, and those who have lost their children would give anything to be in that position. Don’t dwell too much on the shouting, there’ll be more, I’ve shouted out of my own frustration, or taken it out on the kids and while I regret it instantly, those kids go to bed knowing they’re loved and that they’re the most amazing human beings. Gorgeous pictures and I will always hold my boys as long as I can xx

    August 21, 2016 at 8:32 pm Reply
  • Fritha Strickland

    These are such gorgeous pictures! Ones to frame for sure xx

    August 22, 2016 at 1:55 pm Reply
  • Chantal Milk&Nappies

    Such a heartfelt post, and it is so true – motherhood is the hardest thing in the world, but it’s also the best thing and I can’t imagine how hard it must be to lose your child. Your photos are beautiful, your little girl is so gorgeous xx

    August 22, 2016 at 2:18 pm Reply
  • Hannah

    I always find that tragic stories close to home really upset me too and usually give me a shake up. The poor horror that those poor parents are going through is so had to fathom and not something that any of us would want to experience. It makes you realise that all the tough times with our littles ones, are just that, tough phases as a life without them is just not worth thinking about. You have taken some beautiful pictures here, ones to treasure! xxx

    August 25, 2016 at 2:19 pm Reply
  • Hannah

    *pure horror

    August 25, 2016 at 2:20 pm Reply
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