The Ordinary Moments ’16 #10 & #11 | Juggling

Firstly, apologies that I have been such a rubbish blogger recently. I have barely had a moment to myself so blogging hasn’t really been on my agenda lately. I never even got around to taking our Me & Mine photos for February unfortunately! And secondly, I don’t want this post to come across like I’m moaning, because that is not the case. I contemplated whether I should even share this on my blog but sadly these things happen regularly so therefore are Ordinary Moments for me.

The last couple of weeks have really tested me, both emotionally and physically. I have shed a fair few tears and just generally not felt like myself at all. I’ve mentioned previously that I care for my dad alongside my part time office job, this works for our family as it means I get to spend more time with Bella and be the one to look after my Dad. We have a routine during the week and I pop in to do my bits for him on set days with Bella in tow and although my week is busy, it’s manageable.

On Mothers day, I had just got out of the shower when I received a panicked call from my Dad who had pressed his lifeline button to get through to me. He had woken up that morning and couldn’t see. Although he is already partially sighted I straight away knew what had happened, he had experienced a bleed in his eye which was blocking his vision. He’d had this before, but never this bad he told me. He was in a real fluster and informed me a paramedic was already on their way. We quickly got dressed and headed to his.

We arrived at the same time as the paramedic, who after assessing Dad, decided he needed to be taken into hospital so that the specialist eye doctor could take a look. We waited for almost two hours for the back up ambulance to arrive. The lovely paramedic informed me that Mothers day is one of their busiest days, who knew?!

Dad was released from hospital that same evening and booked in for an emergency eye scan the next day at a different hospital which confirmed it was just a bad bleed, and it should clear on it’s own.

The last week has been completely hectic as unfortunately his vision hasn’t improved much at all. I can’t even begin to imagine just how scary it must be not being able to see. My Dad lives alone and is fairly independent for a partially sighted amputee. But at the moment where he can’t see much at all I’m having to administer all his medication for him, 8 tablets in the morning, 6 in the evening. Test his blood sugars then give him the correct insulin. I’m having to prepare his breakfast and his dinner each day and make sure the fridge is stocked with easy to grab snacks for lunch.

I’m having to do all of the above around our  normal routine which involves visits to him before and after work as well as on my lunch break sometimes too.

I feel like I’m juggling so many different things at the moment that my head might just explode and I’m slightly nervous that I’ll forget something really important soon, like picking Bella up from nursery… Although, I’m sure they would call me fairly promptly if that was the case 😉  I’m definitely stretching myself too thinly right now, I’ve been trying my hardest to make sure Bella’s getting enough of my attention too. We have somehow managed to go swimming and to the swings twice this week amidst all the chaos.  but unfortunately there is nothing I can do. I’m a carer and sometimes, there are no days off. Not even on Mothers day.

This won’t last forever, things should get easier. But right now, it’s pretty damn hard. I said to my sister the other day, that people with healthy parents really don’t realise just how lucky they are.

Health really is so so important and it’s something people take for granted every single day. My poor Dad isn’t even 60, yet his list of health issues is longer than my arm and he has been unable to work for over 10 years. Life can be so unfair and it really does put things into perspective. If I’m ever having a bad day, I try to remind myself that somebody, somewhere is having a much worse day than me. And the things I’m getting worked up about, probably aren’t even important, not really.

Bella at just Two, definitely knows something is up with her Papa. She’s been giving him lots of extra cuddles and kisses. As we said goodbye the other day she looked him straight in the eye and said ‘I Lulllllooo Papa’ completely unprompted. I though my Mama heart was going to burst! He might not be able to see her at the moment, but he definitely heard her words and his whole face lit up. It was a very special ordinary moment, one that I wish I could bottle up and keep forever.


Linking up with Katie to share #TheOrdinaryMoments
Thanks for reading
Harriet xo



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  • Sarah Cantwell

    So sorry to hear your dad hasn’t been well honey, I hope his sight recovers soon xx

    March 14, 2016 at 2:05 pm Reply
  • Katie @mummydaddyme

    Oh lovely it must be so hard for you, I have heard you mention your Dad before but I had no idea how tough it must be for you. You deserve a huge amount of credit for what you do. I hope that his eye gets better soon and that you manage to get a bit of a break and not juggle as much. You are right, health is so important and it is something we can sometimes take for granted. Thanks for giving me some perspective this Monday afternoon. x

    March 14, 2016 at 2:13 pm Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Thank you so much Katie. It definitely is hard, but he’s my Dad so you just get on with it, you know? There has been some slight improvement today thankfully so hopefully it will continue to improve. ‘Bella’ kindly got me a spa break for Mothers day, I think I need to get it booked in 😉 You are very welcome, I know I sometimes take it for granted too! xo

      March 14, 2016 at 4:12 pm Reply
  • Sonia

    Wow, what a strong lady you are. A two year old alone is draining, but being a carer too and having to juggle everything, must take it’s toll. Have some well earned time-out and book that spa day! x

    March 14, 2016 at 7:02 pm Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Thank you Sonia. Some days it does take its toll and others I just take it all in my stride! I must book that spa trip in, definitely needing it at the moment! xo

      March 17, 2016 at 3:38 pm Reply
  • Kerry norris

    You’re definetly not moaning. It’s good to get things off your chest and I’m sure you don’t feel like you can say anything to anyone else.
    I’m not surprised that you’re feeling the way you are. You must be shattered. I’d be worried I’d forget something too but I’m sure that’s natural in such a busy lifestyle. I’m sorry you didn’t get a great Mother’s Day. Hopefully the next few weeks will be easier x

    March 14, 2016 at 8:34 pm Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Thank you Kerry for your lovely comment. You are totally right, sometimes I feel like I cant speak to anyone else about how tough it can be. Hopefully things will improve soon. Hope you are well xxx

      March 17, 2016 at 3:38 pm Reply
  • Harriet from Toby & Roo

    Oh I’m so sorry to hear your dad has been so unwell. Hope things pick up for you. H x

    March 14, 2016 at 8:35 pm Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Thank you lovely, appreciate it xo

      March 17, 2016 at 3:36 pm Reply
  • Colette B

    How lovely that your little girl was able to give her Grandad a moment of such joy amongst all the stress x

    March 14, 2016 at 9:10 pm Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      It was a very special moment. Thanks for your comment Colette xo

      March 17, 2016 at 3:36 pm Reply
  • Rebecca | AAUBlog

    oh what a scary time 🙁 hope things all get better soon x

    March 15, 2016 at 11:24 am Reply
  • Ali

    Ah bless you, no wonder blogging has taken a bit of a back seat. You can’t fit it all in, and you’ve been doing a wonderful job with your dad by the sounds of it xx

    March 15, 2016 at 2:30 pm Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Thank you. You’re right, there just isn’t enough hours in the day for it all! Hopefully things will settle down soon xo

      March 17, 2016 at 3:34 pm Reply
  • lifewithpinkprincesses

    No wonder you’ve not been feeling yourself. Your poor dad. I hope you start to feel a bit better soon.

    March 15, 2016 at 3:54 pm Reply
  • lifeasmum

    Oh bless you lovely! Must be so hard 🙁 Hope your Dad is better soon. X

    March 15, 2016 at 6:31 pm Reply
  • My Little Babog Blog

    Oh your poor dad, so sorry to hear he has been unwell. I really hope he’s felling better soon and you look after yourself xx

    March 15, 2016 at 9:51 pm Reply
  • suzanne3childrenandit

    My goodness, what a lot you have on your plate. You are right when you say health is important so please do take care of yourself too. I understand what you mean about having so much on and worrying about forgetting something, I often feel like that too. That’s when I know I need to take a step back and cut a few things out. Obviously you lovely dad needs you but be kind to you. And does it matter if you forget something? Not picking up your child (obviously!) but the other things can go. I hope your dad’s eye clears up soon. x

    March 16, 2016 at 10:38 am Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Thank you Suzanne. I know, this week I have tried my hardest to keep my personal plans to the minimum so that I can have some more down time to myself. A hot bubble bath can work wonders after a long day! xxx

      March 17, 2016 at 3:32 pm Reply
  • Zoe Alicia

    I’m so sorry. What a horrible time of it you’ve had lately. I adore how empathetic Bella is being at such a young age. She’s going to grow up to be the most caring individual and you should be so proud xx

    March 16, 2016 at 10:45 am Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Ohhh Zoe, thank you for you very kind and thoughtful comment. xxxxx

      March 17, 2016 at 3:31 pm Reply
  • lisagraham1

    I hope things get better with your dad soon and his vision starts to improve. People take their health for granted until they get ill or experience looking after a loved one. Sounds like you’re doing a great job keeping it all together xx

    March 16, 2016 at 9:01 pm Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Thanks for your lovely comment Lisa. We’ve had some slight improvement with his sight so fingers crossed!! xo

      March 17, 2016 at 3:30 pm Reply
  • Amanda (@OurWildThings)

    i’m so sorry to hear about your dad lovely. It must be hard and i really hope things pick up. It sounds like you’re doing a fab job xx

    March 16, 2016 at 10:33 pm Reply
    • Harriet Lee

      Thank you so much Amanda, most days it doesn’t feel like i’m doing a fab job though! xo

      March 17, 2016 at 3:30 pm Reply
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